Fixer’ upper.
Vanity.
Mornin’ love. (Taken with Instagram)
i am tired of manufactured fun
the clinking of white teeth
and the fiction behind them.
if eminence is truth
then i am a lie -
soot covered
obsidian grit
frail invertebrate pariah
set low
on a dime-store shelf.
a lowbrow queen in
low thread count sheets
the muffle of a sweat soaked pillow.
yet my narrative is fact
while your spit drips folly
through fabricated ivory squares -
I’ll bet my worth
that if you dust me off
you just may find yourself again.
- self
I cannot write this for you,
so i shall write it to the sea -
for in both of them i drown,
and the two are natural deaths.
- self
this is lovely.
6 am shouts at me
while you sleep softly in your bed.
There is no movement here,
‘cept the creaks of the house
and a crackle in my lungs.
White noise becomes a nervous
voice in the dark,
parroting the thoughts
bucking in my brain.
What’s there to say little man?
You are less real to me than loch ness,
unicorns and such.
But still,
much the same as religion,
a listless deity clinches the whip
and i am held paralyzed,
left to speak with the voices in the dark.
- self
Pa & binoculars. (Taken with Instagram at Seapointe Village)
Top of the wheel aka losing my dinner (Taken with Instagram at Morey’s Piers and Beachfront Waterparks)
week at the beach (Taken with Instagram at Seapointe Village)
Taken with Instagram
- Ingrid Jonker
sober minds disconnect feelings from body -
still your gaze,
it may break through the bones of this woman
as your nails scrape,
tear,
as they rip at the marrow,
as they run through these grooves
that have turned into sewers
and your grin -
so it seizes my youth’s last reserves
and to think those
ivory channels
held the fits,
held the nerves,
held the cause for a life
they have turned into gutters
and i beg -
stay awhile,
my distant, fatal friend,
you may clip me to the quick,
but no stitch shall endure
the brine of my being,
my own means to an end
i can still see utopia flickering beneath the surface.
i can still feel my pulse;
the interior of bones.
- self
